I’ve realised today that sometimes we just have to accept that we don’t have control over these feelings and emotions that embody the illness of depression. Some days I really struggle to come to grips with the length of illness I have endured and the severity of my prognosis; nevertheless, overall inevitably I just need to ‘let it rain’. The depression will take its course no matter what I do to fight it. Accepting it for what it is and continually working on strategies to improve my prognosis is a much more useful path. Furthermore, sharing my journey with others and admitting that I have many days struggled is a brave thing to do and I hope something that will help someone along the way. Any encouragement is good encouragement just as long as you remember you are not alone.
I did this painting on one of those days where I just didn’t have much left in the tank. I reminded myself that although hard, if I could keep going through this, what else could life really throw at me. Although I have to remind myself sometimes, I am stronger than I think and I will eventually recover from this dreadful illness.
I hope you are having a day where you can see some light at the end of the tunnel. I know that it is sometimes hard but I have recovered myself once before and I have seen other strong women I admire at follow-up recover too. Let it rain for now but remember you are not your illness > the special person underneath all that sometimes seemingly endless negative emotion is still there. Remember always that this is not for forever!
I hope you find happiness in your day today 🙂